FEED THE SOUL

Liberate me from

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 00:36:09 GMT

Liberation Theology.

Theo Orals later!!!!! On a Saturday. On the very very very last day before Christmas Vacation. How nice. I've developed a special skill of writing very very small (for the one note card). God, please help me God. One last before....before I do all my other midterm requirements during the Christmas break. Haaaay oh well. Ho ho ho ho hooooooo.

It is so weird how this feels like a busy week but all I've got is this ...orals!!! :\ And last class on external relations. Booooooooooo.

Okay, just. Whew there.

KK.

GO

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 12:14:23 GMT

When I woke up this morning, I saw Papa watching Almost Famous! Haha. That AF DVD was amongst the DVDs that got washed away with the floods during Ondoy. They were washed away from their respective shelves at least, not away from the house. Funny that it was still working. Remember the intro of Alvin and the Chipmunks from the film? I love that absolutomento. :D

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Went to Divi today for some errands for an upcoming project. Manila is such a disaster. It makes me very sad. And I'm not being sarcastic.

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And now, I am doing a stupid paper for a very very stupid and useless subject. I swear, I say the same things every week (because we write a paper once a week), just different bull shits. :)

This, I hope, is not some bull shit. :) I lalalalove it.

Saw this book today, I want it. Because sometimes, I am just too good?

Ain't it cool.

you've got me high and you don't even know yet

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 13:54:34 GMT

Kiddinggg very much!

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I'm now done with the Press Review -- that turned out to be a major report -- for External Relations of the EU. That's a load off from my chest for now. But wow, I just learned I'll be needing to do yet another thing...for another thing. Whyyy. I'll think of that tomorrow. :|

But being the true nerd that I am, I ~~loved~~ liked doing that report. It was about the Cold War and the fall of the Berlin Wall. I looooved it. History is so nice. :) I never knew the Cold War was that encompassing in terms of countries' involvement, nations, leaders, arms race and inceptions of organizations and countries. Why are the things that I love are not the kind of things that will bring easy money? Haha. Saw my friend the other day and she said, "Hindi siya applicable sa totoong buhay" referring to our course. I'm aware of that, but I'm also aware that I don't want to work corporate (or work corporate for a very long time) anyway and that not all high-paying jobs are involved with business or management. Boo yeah.

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Last night the six of us minus one went on a food trip spree again. Last night, first time kong mapagsarhan ng Starbucks. It's good times, good times you know. Last time, we had isaw at about 4pm, kebab dinner at 7pm then ice cream at 9pm. HAHA. Babs. I missed Kimberrr, she was selling her statement boxers at Eastwood with her groupmates. Haha. To bring out my underlying urge to have a Tagaytay trip, ~~my friends and~~ I just decided to text her that we were on our way to Tagaytay already. HAHAHA. She miscalled me thrice!!! :)) Really, we were just at Tomas. Sakto, cos Carlo's Pizza was at the second floor of Il Terrazza (?). We tried to take our picture with the Carlo's Pizza name but it was a failure. Anyway, it's all good nowww. Hahaha.

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So what will be of this last year in college? Last everything. Last shot. O.M.

Haay so many things going on, but at the same time, life is kind of bland. The irony of it all. I have no 'mo moneyyyy. I need more chillax times. :\

To be a rock and not to roll

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 17:20:05 GMT

Brad was almost Russel Hamond and Kirsten Dunst as Penny Lane?! Whew, thank God that didn't happen. Everything was just so perfect about that film already. I can't believe imdb has so many interesting trivia about AF and CC! I was smiling and saying "Oooh" and "Aaaah" while reading this. It's so cool. And that is honestly also the reason why I love this film so much. No real profound explanation actually. I don't even find any dialogue deep enough to quote or remember by heart except for "I am a golden god" and "One day, you'll be cool."

Aaaah, I am going crazy over these information! I LOVE LOVE Cameron Crowe. He is such a genius! Maybe it's really not so much the film per se, but how it was delivered. It was really ama-zzzing, you know? And in the trivia part, I learned how all Crowe's films makes references to one another, or have distinct Crowe style in them, like singin in the car while driving. And it's so interesting how he makes so many music references in his films, esp AF.

Here are a few things that made me go "Oooh" and "Aaaah"

Penny Lane asks William if he'd like to go to Morocco with her. He says, "Yes... ask me again." According to director Cameron Crowe, "ask me again" was Patrick Fugit stepping out of character and asking Kate Hudson to repeat her lines for another take. But Crowe liked the take as-is and kept it in the final cut.
At the party, when he is on acid, Russell Hammond cries out, "I am a golden god!" This is a reference to Robert Plant of the band Led Zeppelin, who is purported to have said the same thing (sober) while looking over Sunset Strip from a hotel balcony.
In the scene where the tour plane hits turbulence, Russell starts to sing "Peggy Sue". This is in reference to Buddy Holly, who died in a plane crash while on tour. Russell then continues "Whoa baby!", referencing The Big Bopper, who died in the same plane crash.
During the opening credits, the hand that's writing on the notepad belongs to Cameron Crowe (now that's cool)
Cameron Crowe says he got Billy Crudup's line, "Well, yeah, on my better days, I am Russell from Stillwater," directly from John Cusack's response to a girl in a bar who asked, "Aren't you Lloyd Dobler?" (his character in Say Anything... (1989)).
Featuring over 50 songs, the film's music budget was $3.5 million. Most music budgets for films are less than $1.5 million.

So now, I really really really have to watch Say Anything. Although I have been saying that since foreverrrr,

Learn and go to imdb!

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I'm taking a break from painting. I'm actually...getting better (whaaza?). But my mermaid has no face. I can't paint faces (yet). Bow.

ayayayayayyayayayyy!

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 10:22:58 GMT

Ryan Reynolds in The Proposal, holy shit. <3 Aaaaah. That movie was v. v. funny. Although the ending was just really, obviously, too good to be true. I mean, who falls in love in three days with a person you've abhorred for three years? Seriously. Haha. But it was really funny though.

Aaaaah. Someone get me out of here and into a beach.

the idealist and cold-hearted one

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 09:20:53 GMT

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. May 23rd was a Wednesday.

The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total misreading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief.

<3

Definitely now included in my roster of favorite films. Haa? I have a roster of favorite films? What. :D

HAAAAY BUHAY.

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:50:12 GMT

Yun lang.

i don't wanna be sober

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 16:40:15 GMT

Didn't go to the Bonfire anymore last night. It all seems so over the top already. Haha. I'm really glad we won though, if I were not, I wouldn't have been shouting my lungs out at Leong last Thursday, cheering. Spent time with Illums, I missed them. Super bitin lang. Friday celebrated with Max for her birthday. Super bitin also. Verns was just beginning to be drunk. I don't wanna be sober. But I also don't want to drown my liver in alcohol so, no.

Haay haay haay. Can everything just stoooop? Time flies when you're having fun but I say, time flies when you don't want it to. HAHA. Really.

This is I think, the busiest sembreak I will ever have. That is just gross, but what can I do.

This is a montage and I'm not making sense, but what is to make sense anyway. What!

This kind make sense. And good night.

I hate the term 'hippie chic.'
Let's face it, hippies are not chic.
I should know, I married one. - Kate H. (In Style, 09)

i guess i am young but i feel so weary

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 16:28:03 GMT

Frustrated and pissed off that I have been wanting (so bad) to watch 500 Days of Summer since forever and it's been months now and I still haven't watched it. And now Jam is going to premier it! BOOOF. AAAnnnd, others have watched it already. I can't seem to download, and I don't like watching online (yeah yeah yeah) so there. And I have been deceiving and confusing my mind about the ending cos I read from somewhere how it turned out. I am forgetting it.... That one sentence really.....argh.

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Anyway, still can't take my mind off what has happened. I just wish everything, everywhere (and I mean all over the world (tsunami in samoa, earthquake in indonesia, dust storms in australia, mudslide in italy, typhoon in the philippines)) can just get bettter so that I can focus on shallow things in life. But that won't happen. EVER. So I really can't help myself if my mind gets preocuppied about death tolls, refugees fighting over donations, people getting sick, people dying. The list is endless. But like how it all turned out to be, BAYANIHAN is alive here at least.The YOUTH is stepping up. I just really hope this won't end as abruptly as it started.

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Today I was at National Bookstore, and I was looking at buying that sketch pad. But I didn't buy it. I'm afraid I'll just crumple more papers than actually have something drawn in them haha. Hmp. I want to draw, but every other thing gets in the way.

From lonelyplanet.com

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Speaks. Confusiosity. Hmm no no no. Nomnomnomnom! I'm trying to read Theo, but Love, Stargirl is winning. How could it not, I read the first installment in high school, and I'm just reading the sequel now.

Maybe Tomorrow

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 10:32:16 GMT

I am so left behind with all the readings in Theo and Philo that this Tuesday, I was planning to read some of them knowing that the following day, it's back to school. But I really couldn't get myself to do it knowing that a few kilometers from where I live, people have died, lost a house, lost a loved one, and are dying slowly because of that typhoon no one expected to cause such humongous and terrorizing floods in Metro Manila. I mean, who would really be able to study at this point?

So now, knowing that the week's classes have been cancelled, I went and volunteered myself with friends and now, knowing that the finals are optional, I plan to finish all my requirements as fast as I possibly could and help out. One of my friends are involved in a tree-planting somewhere and I'm seriously going to volunteer. It actually seems so futile now, but who knows. I feel so useless when I'm here at home. I want to go out and donate, but our own refrigerator is almost empty because it got swept in the flood; I want to help give out food, but our own car got destroyed because of the same damn reason. I never felt so restless to go out and help, but knowing that your own home and family also needs you, it's not that simple.

I dont' even know how to begin describing how I feel and think about this whole situation. I'm lucky, my family is lucky, and most of the people I know. But man, knowing that one of us may not have been possibly spared is a scary fact to think about. The situation is getting worse that relief operations lack donations, goods aren't going where thery're supposed to and refugees are fighting over these donated goods. There's a feeling that the mere packing of rice or clothes is not going anywhere. "At least I helped out a little" is not good enough.

We can blame a whole lot of people for this. Well, in times like these, we blame everyone but ourselves. But like every other thing, there is not only one person, or one group of people, or one thing that have caused all of this. It is now that I clearly understand what seven years of Miriam grade school education has taught me over and over about the 7 Environmental Principles. One particular rule stands out -- Everything is connected to everything else. Now it's all clear how that goes.

Political. Economic. Environmental. Sociological. Every other factor is intertwined at this point. It just really saddens and infuriates me knowing that GMA can have several lavish, mouth-watering, and gold mine dinners in New York, and in times of calamity, the city of Marikina for example only have two rubber boats to rely on. That is for the whole city. Government officials say they did not expect this floods of biblical proportions to happen, but COME ON, my mom even knows from 10 years ago that Cainta floods like crazy and I'd bang my head on the wall if govenment officials say that they didn't know this. Sir Dave says that once you work, you'll feel the wrath and incompetence of the government. They really do take a large sum from your pay -- and you see nothing good happening in your country. No, Manny Pacquiao winning is not included. Money makes the world go round, only if used properly.

There is no urban planning at all in this country. Malls sprout like crazy and trees are treated like shit. Mama tells me that when lolo was the Director of the Department of Forestry, he would receive bags and bags of money coaxing him to let them (illegally) log trees in the mountains, but lolo won't let that happen. I think he was the odd man out in the government. He was too good. But that is exactly what this country now needs -- someone as selfless as can be. Benevolent but someone who knows what he's doing. As of now, I only have one vote, but once this guy collaborates with ERAP (based from rumors going around), he's out of my list. I really think this is not a hype, when people are fed up, they go where there is the most hope.

As Conrado de Quiros wrote, Why has Noynoy become phenomenal? Simple: Because he is the opposite of Gloria. Or is seen as so. In the same way that Cory was the opposite of Marcos and Obama was the opposite of Bush.

Bottom line is, politically, we need good leaders. If leaders can make people follow than cause hatred towards them, then that's a positive sign today. Two more typhoons are coming this way. One already causing more harm tomorrow. We still haven't recovered and tragedy might already happen again. I've never felt so afraid of rains than today. I've never felt so useless. I've never felt so empathic with this country. I've never felt so quietly outraged. I've never felt so confused. HAAY. TAE.

In International Political Econ, I learned that only global cooperation can possibly work in order to alleviate environmental problems. If cooperation in the national level cannot work, how more internationally? Kyoto Protocol expires in 2012, and there's no any other environmental control to replace it -- yet. Pray for the Copenhagen to be passed by this December. :| I hope Obama will do his best.

As I didn't know how to begin this, I also don't know how to end it. Hahaha. Right now, let's just pray. PRAY. And work for others. We have treated the Earth badly, and each other badly as well. Time to change.

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ANYWAY, NAKAKATAWA PA RIN YUNG NANGYARI KAHAPON!!! EPIC. Went out to help out, pero kami yung na-rescue!

kerfuffled

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 14:54:42 GMT

Raw and honest it is, yes. I loved Adventureland. 80s, 90s, 00s kids are all strruggling about the same damn thing. But love, love is always on the way. Satellite of love. \m/

And you know, besides the fact that it makes you realize that getting a job is difficult even having earned a degree, it makes you...think about summer. HAHA WHAT. We all have our issues. What better way to endure those than under the ferris wheels and mindless games?

"You're definitely a Games person."

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Grabe, I want to watch Inglorious Basterds!

FML.

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 18:09:52 GMT

For My Loverrrrr. HAHAHA. Rooooight.

Spinoza's Ethics + Kant's Groundwork for the Metaphysics of Morals = BRAIN MUSH. DEAD.

Okay, so good luck to me on that deathly LT tomorrow. Another hell week on the way. LT + 2 reports + Histo Play + Beat It! = IDONTKNOW.

And so, my only consolation is sleep. I will forget all these (and at the same time process what Ive studied for) in 3 hours.

Bow.

I CANNOT WAIT!!!!

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 16:18:01 GMT

everybody wants to be found

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:53:22 GMT

Sometimes I almost feel sorry for this blog for putting in it all the negative vibes and feelings that I am having. But most of the time, i really don't because I know it understands. HAHAHA. But at least it helps. I know this blog understands. Ahhhrrrgh.

You knowww, I wouldn't say I'm emo, but really, sometimes, the world just sucks. BIG TIME. YA KNOW. Maybe it's PMS? Then, either way, that sucks as well.

Why why why why why why.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Nothing, I just wanted to type A and H lots of times!

BEH.

Come on

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 21:50:24 GMT

Goshyyyy goshy nervous!

That is just so gay. Last Midterm, Histo!!! :| Help me Looooord. HAHA. Arghhhh. Scary hit or miss.

Anyway, I'm still gonna be busy anyway after this, Paper, read, and major project for the sem...which is not going so well.

Well, yeah.

TAKE ME SOMEWHERE I DON'T KNOW

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 12:45:00 GMT

It's so weird that during classes or times when I'm in the lib, I always always hear the bell, even though it is not yet time for it to ring. What does this mean?

Restless soul?
Restless brain?
Restless self?

As Calgon says, Take Me Away!

COLD HANDS, WARM HEART

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 16:49:19 GMT

I really should remember to bring a camera more often to school. With the remaining days/weeks of the semester, I should start stacking up on pics with friends and all that school stuff. School is killing me, but I still love my school. Norah Jones has been keeping me sane while studying. God, it is such a love-hate relationship. Haaate it. But you know, if not for everything that it is, the friends, my org and the free wifi internet, then, I would probably just hate it.

Thursday until today were such busy days. I am so lacking sleep, and lacking money, and lacking load. What I hate about the most with working with a lot of people is TEXTING. I swear it is such a hassle. And considering my phone is so slow. I don't know why...maybe it's because I keep dropping it everywhere? Haha. There is so much going on right now, that it makes me think who in the world ever said senoir year would be easy? It is not. I say SAVOUR freshman year. It is the easiest I swear. All I am thankful for, is that this is not the Math kind of difficult. HAHA.

Thursday, commuter blooper again! I thought I was over this but I wasn't. Too lazy to tell everything, but the gist is, as I was on my way home from area, which was at V.Mapa, the train didn't have ELECTRICITY. Therefore, no train at all! And I was alone! And I was at Manila!! AAAAAAND, I had a THEO ORALS the next morning which I haven't completely studied for! At that point, I really didn't know if I were going to laugh or cry, maybe both. What happened? Can you just ask me in person? Hahaha.

So I slept for about three hours because I studied. So the next day I was a zombie. I cut Euro Film :(. I had to do org work that time which led me to do desperate measures for the sake of the project. Why do I do this again? Hahahaha. I was such a zombie, and so sleepy. I wanted to rest but we had a Histo play practice at 6-9! How wonderful. So I arrived home late and.... boogshhh to the bed, I was asleep.

The next day (today), area again which is always fun. But not so much for the commuting part. Haha. Saw the premature baby :( It was heart wrenching. He is 7 months premature. He is such a tiny tiny thing. The limbs are all so small and thin, and his skin is still quite wrinkled, and you can clearly see the head quite deformed. But the nurse said he's doing ok, he's a survivor :) I just really didn't like the name the mom gave, Jun-Jun. Why. I will name him Kent! Super baby. HAHA.

Aw, Ateneo-LaSalle tomorrow. Maybe I'll just watch at home.

So much for the "Pakawala Night" I envisioned for my weekend. Haha.

Yesterday, the waving made my day again. <3 Keep saying Hi to moi. <3

I just want to share stuff:

Zen Garden from the Diana F+

From the wedding last June!

My dress and shoes

At the hotel. I wish lived there.

Summer!

I want road trip NOW. On our way to ....I forgot! Basta beach. :) With Tugon.

Colors! At Tagaytay, Summer. The sky is amazing all the time.

The Stained Glass windows at Manila Cathedral are just incredible.

That's it.

We've all got our junk, and my junk is you.

LONESTAR

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 21:49:55 GMT

Dear God, please help me to be able to answer stuff about your whole being in my orals later. In like three hours.

After 2 and 1/2 hours of sleep (fine, three), it's study time again at 4am. Is this finals week already or what?

I swear, after this, after this!!!! I will not drink coffee for a week!

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crosses and roses

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 12:12:25 GMT

It's so sad how we appreciate people when they are gone, but maybe that's what makes passing away so special. I feel like we were again robbed of one of the few remaining morally-upright and genuinely selfless Filipinos willing to make a real difference in this country. Can you imagine what kinds of people would dominate the Philippine government 10 years from now?

One of my friends told me that the Carmelites believe that the person who dies on the first Saturday of the month goes straight to heaven. It wouldn't hurt to believe it's true.

Fly Off Somewhere

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 03:20:48 GMT

No classes today. What a blessing is a no class day Monday. Truly, truly. :) Its seems like the weekend is always not enough and how the weekday is sometimes just too much. But this week, we're going to be attending school for three days only! Woohoo. Thank you St. Ignatius.

The downside however is, there have been so many cancelled classes so far that I'm missing for several times already the only subject I look forward to this sem, which is Euro film. It's my peaceful class even though some of the films are actually disturbing (case in point, Olivier Olivier)

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Last Saturday, Wins, Mev, Kim, and I watched The Fantasticks at Greenbelt. :) I love watching plays and musicals. I t was so nice. Althooooough, I'd really have to say I like Sinta better. Maybe it's really different when the songs are in Filipino and the weather's tag-ulan at tag-araw instead of summer and winter. :) But anyway, at least I was able to see the original play where Sinta was based on. I loved all the underlying meanings, and the symbolisms in it. And of course, the general entertainment value. Looking forward to more more musicals/plays from now on. :) I WISH someday I'd have a musicals spree on Broadway and off-Broadway! Now, when will that someday be?

Right now, I'm listening to Spring Awakening songs, to better prepare myself for its Manila run! When?

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Last Thursday, Bea, Ione, Nissy and I went to UP....to eat. We were ~~like~~ pigs.
Kimchi rice + Kimbab + Corn + Frozen Yogurt + Shake = PATAY GUTOM

Juico, where were you? Haha.

But it was fun, just like the old times. <3

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I need to find a costume shop!!!!

stupid giddy smiling girl

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 11:48:24 GMT

*waves hi*

For a moment there, I became one. As in, instantly. But it was really just for a moment, 3 second tops. Haha.

Oh well, at least it made the Philo LT day better. That LT was impossible to answer in 50 minutes!! It was truly unfair. i haaaaate it. Pleaase I just want to pass it. Aristotle and his Nocoachean Ethics should rot in vicious hell, without all the good ends in the world!

What a very stupid Nicomachean joke.

Boring.

Anyhoo, things are getting busy. :( I miss just being spontaneous, stupid and pointless with friends. Sometimes, even though I really want to know what's the point, i just really wanna be pointless as hell.

And I really have no idea how am I going to fix my body clock studying time. Figure it ouuuuuuuuut.

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Movies! I think Adventureland is already showing! But in Ayala Cinemas only -- again. So there, Adventureland, 500 Days of Summer, and The Time Traveller's Wife. :)

Yes.

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 12:53:23 GMT

Well, that is just so cool.

What creative shot to do????

I am at a loss for an idea.

TRULY

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 06:21:09 GMT

We accept the love we know we deserve.

--PostSecret

sleight of hand

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 15:29:20 GMT

I was with Martin today and he said to me he was tired. I told him I was alsoooooooo so tired. But then again he stressed that this kind of fatigue is not from lack of sleep or excess of school work, but you know, tired. Sick and tired as we were saying before. Yeeeah. Calarts just seem like light years away!!!!

A quarter-life crisis was declared alas. I think it's really a crisis in so much that there are just so many options open at this time of our lives and that we want to pursue so so many things, but we can only do so much.

So what do we do? I really have no idea. What I know is I need to finish this first. But, is that there is all to it? So you know, contemplative mode here yaw.

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Films I need need to watch!!!
- 500 Days of Summer
- The Time Traveller's Wife

Umm, okay that is all I think.

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I need to master the lomo. I know I can do it!

:)

PLIGHT

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 16:05:20 GMT

Third week of school and what the hell I am already busy and cramming. Hahahaha.

Friday no classes!!!! :)